LL 2020: December 's Rant!

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Hellooooooooooooooooooo yeorobeun :))

Let's start with 2021 resolution. 

As we're going to end this unbelievable year, I recognize that I never send my mutual the love letters like I used to. As I'm adapting with the first year of the degree, I spend my free time mingle with my housemates and the neighbours without knowing that I did less engagement with the loving human. I feel bad T.T for abandoning them! At this hour, I'm enjoying my me-time and writing you 'something' and I don't decide yet if you'll receive through email or check them in my blog. I will decide it back in Christmas as I'm fully occupied to do judgement right now....

As I do less engagement with people this year so I do self-reflection more. 

:: The dazzling future that we never know

 I encounter these lyrics so many times and it goes deeper as I think. How we know this path (today's decision) will be the path that future-us will happy to live with? The word happy itself sets a high standard in living. We'll never know the answer be it today or tomorrow. At the utmost, we can make du'a to Allah because everything is good in God's hands. Tell Him to whatever end, make it 'husnul khatimah'. Lead our passion for rewarding good deeds, to us and others.

:: The result is lower than my expectations

I see my friend struggling with ODL as she's having internet issue in her neighbourhood. Despite that, she still manages to do well and achieve Dean's list for that semester. I wish I can tell you and me that we've tried. We have tried our best, sweety. We managed to try and we already succeed in different ways. As long as we're fighting over something, we are the winner regardless of the outcome.

These controlled movement orders days make me listen to K-Pop songs a lot.... Reminiscing my early teenage everyone's hunting for Oppa lol! In old days, they look very handsome with long hair hshs, a new trend is always amusing for us. I find that listening to music lifts up my spirit so well as I'm having an issue studying alone -.- Rather than listening to break up and sad genre, I chose the one with good lyrics, gratitude, self-love and etc. I find that music contributes a lot to my mood and make me energetic to breathe another day hshs. You can start with Shine Together by Sf9 (done promote). 

I wish I can jot down some tips how to handle this pandemic pressure + ODL. I have none, if this doesn't work, I try other ways until I finish the rough weeks. Mental health is in danger as we tend to consume all the feelings, may this bittersweet journey be the best jihad to be presented in Hereafter. 

If I have to submit many assignments in a busy week, I prefer to sleep early (2100 to 0100) and I will start my work at 0200 as my body need time to activate itself to be fully awake. You will be veryyyyyyy sleepy nearly Fajr so don't forget to make some things (yoga, dance, sing, or recite Qur'an). 

Alternate ways: if you nearly close your eyelids, you can sleep a little if you're too sleepy. As I'm very particular in my sleeping places, I always switch my place to sleep (1 to 2 hours: sofa bed in my room or sofa in the living room and 6-8 hours: my lovely bed in my room). I'm the one that can sleep anywhere but I can get up easily except in my own bed. Eat good and natural food and avoid processed food as it has preservatives and not as much as nutritious than you think it is. 

 

Little did we know, we're going tougher than the beginning of online-distance learning. We did great! As you're at home, make social interaction with your family is superior way to eliminate the stressor. 

I leave you with His guardian.

Till we talk later,

auni-wants-another-week-of-break.

end note: I post in my blog for the memories 💟