lived it, left it

quick recap, it's been 10 months roughly after I have finished my degree~

2 months into housemanship yet 10 months? left, only God knows what KKM plans; starting my tagging as 1st poster in obgyn quite thrilling. everyday dumb, clueless, and overwhelmed. no colleagues to SOS around, the uncertainty in everything, the amount of cries and shouts i received in a day yet i still thumbprint every single day. 

the im-not-sure-dr-im-did-not-do-dr-will assess-first-sorry turns into dr-patient-claim-sob-sudden-onset-v/s-stable-lungs clear in 2 months make me proud of myself. i grow a little braver, fly high. the palpitations still there i swear but im a little bit knowledgeable~~ 

starting w obgyn was quite nice compare to other posting i.e, medical and surgical, a quick overview of some medical n surgical things. surviving oncall alone w zero knowledge still quite impressive hehe because MOs still around.. i just need to disturb their sleeps 

gonna pray hard not being extend because i try everything i could, it just the matter of time. i hope i being a functional houseman as i should.

till then,

Dr Auni

the one who get anxious if PNW did not call me during my oncall